I started this blog for a couple of reasons, but one of them was to write about my struggles with chronic pain. This is one of my worst nights in awhile. One of these days I’ll explain the whole story, but it’s a long one, so not tonight. I went to the ER for the first time ever today, experiencing severe chest pain. It turns out it was my chest wall and ribs that were inflamed, and not my heart. That’s good- I’ve been struggling with tachycardia and runs of SVT lately, so I was worried. But now it’s 3 AM here and I’m in so much pain I can’t sleep. The ER doc even gave me a prescription for some painkillers- they aren’t touching it. I just want to cry. I hate nights like this. They’re long and lonely and no amount of reading or writing or painting makes them better.

Advertisements